Oh, this morning was beautiful! I just love it when its sunny WITH a breeze.
I was sitting
inside thinking how much I really needed to go outside and ride a certain horse. You know how it is when you get that feeling in your gut that tells you "You're being lazy" or "You need to go ride!" Ok most of you probably don't feel that second one! Even for how much I hate that feeling and want to procrastinate, I also love it because then I know I have a conscience.
So I went out and got my aunt's thoroughbred/quarter horse gelding out. He's a very good looking bay, great mover. So your probably wondering "Why don't you want to ride him?" Well there are two main reasons that come to mind 1. He hasn't gotten nearly as much training as should've over the past couple years. 2. He's
very energetic. Put just those two things together and you have a slightly out-of-control ride. (Not fun, lots of hassles, and dangerous if you don't know what you're doing.) With him I pretty much stick to the arena unless someone is with me.
Anyway today I was working on the dreaded
gate. (For him.) Oh yeah, his name's Prince. Forgot to mention that. Prince has had some bad experiences with gates before where people have pushed him too hard. So now when he gets near gates he gets all worked up and his brain shuts down. Even though I'm not a horse I can relate to him in that area. I had people in my life who pushed me too much or expected me to do more than I felt I was able to do, so I would shut down on them. But unlike Prince I now know how to deal with it! I can take all my frustrations, all my pain, hurts, burdens or cares, and simply give them to Jesus. I can't just say "Jesus come take these away." I have to go to him and say "I don't want these burdens, You don't want me to have these burdens, so please take them from me. I release them to You." It is something I have to consciously do. But I have to
let go of them. Its also not a one time deal. (No I shouldn't be falling back on the same thing over and over again.) So from then on I need to do the same thing with other wrong feelings that come up. Envy:give it to God. Self-pity:give it to God. In doing this I am acknowledging that these feelings are wrong and they are sin that I don't want in my life.
Did you know that I'm not the only person who feels like this? I know lots of people who feel they aren't good enough... Do you also know that
we are the ones making them feel like that? When you are working with someone...lets say...a sibling and you are explaining something and they are totally not getting it, the worst thing you can do is get frustrated with them. That is a prime opportunity for Satan to jump in and say "You're not good enough." and in that situation they are most likely going to believe him.
When I'm working with Prince trying to open and close the gate, he gets worked up. Right there I have two choices. 1. To get frustrated and push harder. 2. Back off and work slower. Now if I would get frustrated with him he would sidepass away, throw up his head, or he would go into backup mode where he just backs. That is his body language screaming at me "I don't get this! There's too much pressure! I can't handle it!" Now back to human terms if something like this would have happened to me as a person, a few years ago, I would've either zoned out after the person finally decided just to do it themselves instead of trying to get me to understand, and went into my own depressed little world or I would have went and cried somewhere, wondering why I was so stupid. So please if you see someone is hurting, don't just write them off as troubled emotional people. Go to them
listen to them. (Most times they feel no one wants to listen to them.) Take them to Jesus. Show them that you care, but that he cares so much more and can take away the pain. Help them to see there is a way. One way. His name is Jesus.
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