~Prayer for a warrior's heart

God give me the heart of a warrior. Give me the courage to stand faithful and steadfast against the enemy's advances. Let my heart not quaver at the sight of battle but forever look to my Captain. 

Teach me to fight. But only in Your name and for Your glory. Stop me from engaging in useless battles. Direct me in when to fight and when to walk away. Show me the battles that aren't for me, so that I am not hindering my comrades. Give me eyes to see the wounded and dying all around me. Let me not overlook them. But God give me a burning hatred for the Enemy and all his ways. Give me zeal for overthrowing his kingdom and setting those he holds captive free! 

Remind me constantly where my strength comes from and how often I need to seek more. 

Forgive me for the times that I desert in fear. Show me how to rise from the ashes and once again wield your sword!

For in Your name

I WILL CONQUER!

~Left behind, or not?

Well some of you may know this, some may not. My sister is getting married soon. My younger sister. You know, I'm really happy for them. I'm excited to get another brother. And they'll be living only 10 minutes away.

But what about me? An older sister watching her younger sister get married before her. Is it hard? Awkward?

Honestly, no, not really. At least, not now. Yeah I had to work through some things. But I want to be content with God's will and His best. He knows best. 

There are times when I think "But God will it ever be my turn? Is there a guy out there for me?" and He always says the same things.
"Maybe, but are you satisfied with me? Is your heart content with me? Do you long to have an intimate relationship with me like you desire with a husband? Am I enough?"

Seriously, that is what always comes back. I know if my heart is wandering and discontent right now there is no way I'm going to be happy and content with a man by my side.

So am I content right now?

...Yes!

 I am very much at peace and I'm loving where God has me.
Some days can feel trivial and more meaningless than others but that is only because I have lost my focus. When my attention is on God and what He is doing in my life, where He's taking me and relationships He adds for my growth...those days are satisfying, wonderful and so fulfilling!

Lets not lose focus.

Things don't fulfill. God does.

Relationships don't satisfy. God does.

God is still the answer.