Sunday, October 8, 2017

~Prayer for an obedient heart

God give me the heart of obedience. One that says "Not my will, but thine be done!" and then lives it out. Help me to truely desire to do Your will, not simply out of compliance but from sincere submission. Take away any spirit of fear or inadiquicy and replace it with an immense confidence in You. Let me not shrink back at the uncomfortable tasks or the awkward assignments but let my answer and attitude be "anything for You, Lord!"
Father forgive me for the times I haven't been obedient. For the times it felt too awkward to speak the truth. Or the times I was embarresed to step forward and help.
Show me how to delight in Your service. To serve with joy and humility as only a true daughter of the King of Kings would.
The servant is not greater than her Lord. Your Son obediently gave everything, right down to His very life. Lord let me follow in His footsteps. Let me follow in obedience.

Monday, October 2, 2017

~Prayer for a patient heart

God give me the heart of patience. Help me to willingly wait on your time. Let my heart be content with your will and not be looking ahead for seemingly grander things. Show me what to do while I'm waiting so that this time is not wasted. Help me not to gaze around and compare myself to others but be satisfied knowing I am where You want me to be. 
O God forgive me for the times I jump ahead without Your consent. Forgive me for the times I have been discontent with my place in life. 

Give me a zeal for being right here, right now, even when I can't see the value in it.

God help me to bloom, 
no THRIVE here 
(as insignificant as it may sometimes seem)
 right where I'm planted!

Monday, September 25, 2017

~Prayer for a warrior's heart

God give me the heart of a warrior. Give me the courage to stand faithful and steadfast against the enemy's advances. Let my heart not quaver at the sight of battle but forever look to my Captain. 
Teach me to fight. But only in Your name and for Your glory. Stop me from engaging in useless battles. Direct me in when to fight and when to walk away. Show me the battles that aren't for me, so that I am not hindering my comrades. Give me eyes to see the wounded and dying all around me. Let me not overlook them. But God give me a burning hatred for the Enemy and all his ways. Give me zeal for overthrowing his kingdom and setting those he holds captive free! 
Remind me constantly where my strength comes from and how often I need to seek more. 
Forgive me for the times that I desert in fear. Show me how to rise from the ashes and once again wield your sword!

For in Your name


Wednesday, September 13, 2017

~Left behind, or not?

Well some of you may know this, some may not. My sister is getting married soon. My younger sister. You know, I'm really happy for them. I'm excited to get another brother. And they'll be living only 10 minutes away.

But what about me? An older sister watching her younger sister get married before her. Is it hard? Awkward?

Honestly, no, not really. At least, not now. Yeah I had to work through some things. But I want to be content with God's will and His best. He knows best. 

There are times when I think "But God will it ever be my turn? Is there a guy out there for me?" and He always says the same things.
"Maybe, but are you satisfied with me? Is your heart content with me? Do you long to have an intimate relationship with me like you desire with a husband? Am I enough?"

Seriously, that is what always comes back. I know if my heart is wandering and discontent right now there is no way I'm going to be happy and content with a man by my side.

So am I content right now?


 I am very much at peace and I'm loving where God has me.
Some days can feel trivial and more meaningless than others but that is only because I have lost my focus. When my attention is on God and what He is doing in my life, where He's taking me and relationships He adds for my growth...those days are satisfying, wonderful and so fulfilling!

Lets not lose focus.

Things don't fulfill. God does.

Relationships don't satisfy. God does.

God is still the answer.

Wednesday, May 10, 2017

~Isaiah 43:1-3

Whenever I feel Satan get after me and tell me that I'm not really that important or special or just maybe why would God want you? I get really inspired by Isaiah 43:1-3
(I put it in my own words so it applies to me)

"Fear not Heather for I have redeemed you, I have called you by name; you are mine.
When you pass through the waters, I will be with you; and through the rivers, they shall not overflow you, when you walk through the fire, you shall not be burnt; neither will the flame kindle on you. For I am the Lord you God, the Holy One of Israel, and your Saviour."

Hopefully you can be inspired by this too!

Wednesday, May 3, 2017

~His love

You cannot buy His love, He gives it freely.
You cannot earn His love, He gives it freely.
You cannot work for His love, He gives it freely.
You cannot be good enough for His love, He gives it freely.

His love is not dependent on you. There is only two things you can do: accept it or reject it. Either way you can't change the fact that He loves you. Accept it! Claim it! Hold tight to it and let the fact that God loves you unconditionally change you.
Yes, you should be in awe of that fact, and yes, it should take you to your knees in worship and praise. Does it? Do you accept God's love?
I'm not sure how, but some people come to the conclusion that since God loves me I'm free to do what I want. That's wrong. Who God loves He disciplines. He's not just going to allow you to live in sin. Sin always has consequences. His love is also not an excuse to live in the flesh. If you don't believe that please read Roman 6. (Love that chapter) His love should motivate us to love Him and then to love others.
You know just because we sin does not mean God loves us any less. It will sadden Him and even separate us from Him, but His love it still there. How, you may ask. Simply because GOD IS LOVE.

Sunday, February 26, 2017

~People need help

Please Help
I'm tired of losing, I'm tired of trying
My heart feel broke and I'm tired of crying
I'm all bound up and emotionally tied
I put on a smile but I'm crying inside
They ask how I'm doing, I say that I'm fine
But no one notices, or don't have the time
If only they'd stop, if only they'd care
I might feel safe to open and share
The hope I've lost, the misery I feel
How I wonder if I'll really be able to heal
Is life worth living when I have no hope
Sometimes I wonder if I'll be able to cope
I'm tired of losing, I'm tired of trying
I don't care any more 'cuz inside I'm dying

I can in a very small way relate to this person. Very small. But my heart goes out to them.
I want to notice them, because I know what it feels like to be overlooked.
I want them to feel loved, because I have been hurt by unloving people.
I want to take the time to look into their eyes and see the pain, because I've been hurting and people don't realize it.
I want to show them Jesus, because He's the one who can love them unconditionally. Who can touch their hurt and take it away.
It's not about me, its about Him. And with His help I can make a difference in someone's life.